You’re doing a lot, but joy keeps feeling just out of reach.
Not because you lack joy, but because your attention is always a few steps ahead (or behind).
Your mind might be busy planning tomorrow’s schedule, replaying yesterday’s mistakes, or scanning for what’s next.
Even in calm, beautiful, or happy moments, it can be hard to fully land there. Often it feels like you’re watching life through a screen instead of truly stepping into it.
You may notice joy peeking through in small flashes - a child’s laugh, a cup of tea, the sunlight hitting the floor - but you’re used to moving on to the next thing too fast to catch it.